It's Been a While

It's been a while since I have written. The summer has just been so crazy I feel like I have had no time for myself to even think. I have also not been very inspired lately. With the upcoming birth of my 4th child, I have taken some time to think about how blest we really are. I have 3 healthy children and 1 on the way that I pray every day is healthy. My husband has a successful business and we are able to pay our bills. Then WHY do I still feel like I needed more.



For a while, we had many plans and were very busy, just like many other families. Going to church on the weekend was a luxury, not a part of our lives. We liked to go, but when time didn't permit, we didn't go. This summer I put things back into check. It has become a Sunday routine again. I didn't realize how much I missed it. Not only did I miss the GREAT homilies of our Priests, and the time I spend with God, I missed the community. There is no other community that I want to belong to. Seeing the same people every week and how strong they were in their faith made me realize that is where I not only wanted to be, I NEEDED to be. I was feeling a sense of not-belonging. I started to feel like a teenager where I was trying to find our nitch.



I now realize where our nitch is. It is in the people that I share the same values and morals with. I don't need to try to fit in places, and get upset when I am not invited to go somewhere with a group of people that I THOUGHT were the people I wanted to be with. I preach this to my 9 year old daughter constantly. I never took my own advice until lately. Sometimes we have to make our own paths. It isn't always paved for us. God gave us the tools to build it ourselves. He didn't always make it an easy concrete highway. Sometimes it is an old gravel road where we have to do work to get to where we want to be.



Now that school is about to start, and schedules are getting into place, I am able to set new goals to accomplish. I am taking a new outlook on life. I am going to work harder on spending time with my family and not so much time being in charge. With kids in every sport imaginable, we are pretty busy and I am going to work on being more a part of what is important.